Heavy Heart

Thank goodness it is almost Friday. My heart is so very heavy. My grandmother in Missouri has been diagnosed with terminal lung cancer. I WANT TO COME HOME SO VERY BADLY!!!! Sometimes is hard to be responsible. Wish I could just drop my job and come home but I guess life does not work like that. Just really sad here at Christmas time. It is bitterly cold and dark about 21 hrs out of the day. We are surrounded by Christ's love and I KNOW that. I thank God in heaven for Iran....as for if I did not have him I would have been outta here the day we arrived. It has been a wonderful journey and I know we are supposed to be here, but that does not change the fact that I DEARLY miss everyone back home. As I type this tears are dripping down my face. Please pray for my Gram, wish I could be there with her. I pray God will strengthen her and give her endurance to go from day to day. Iran does not feel at this time that I am able to travel home as for we are currently moving to a different house down the road. It is very hard for me to listen to my husband. I am fighting in my heart against his decision. I know we are coming home for a visit in April, but I want to fly home now. I am supposed to fly in three weeks to Alabama for FEMA training and I have tried to get a ticket from there to MO but for some reason it is not working out....I don't know why. God has a reason I am sure, but I am NOT understanding now. I feel my boss is not fair with me at all....hope she never reads this blog, but that is how is feel. She does not treat me the same as she does everyone else. God only knows why. I pray I don't lose my temper with her as for I have a big one. Very sad and very heavy heart tonight. The Christmas tree lights are glowing and Elvis is singing Silent Night.........and Iran and I are missing home more than words can describe. Tony said when he was here..he felt like he was on the moon.....I feel like we are as far away as the moon. Please, please pray for Gram and pray for my dad as well........and please pray for Iran and I. Thank everyone for all the encouragement and everything they have done for us already.

P.S. I miss my dog